I sometimes get this quaint and fleeting yearning about becoming a teacher of some sorts in some kind of a mentorship program. Generally tends to be an idea that I feel would be liberating in some way. The only problem being that I don’t feel I know anything well enough to be a teacher in the various fields where I hold minuscule bits of knowledge. Plus, I feel the experience set I would expect from a teacher should be much larger.
Now, this is quite problematic because a lot of my peer group is taking courses on the left and right. Almost as if they are bludgeoning through a trend. And it gives me some kind of really odd feeling that I am falling behind in a weird way. Except, I know these folks for many years, some more than a decade. I know they aren’t really as good and I wouldn’t take their courses if it was a rainy day. But I also don’t want to be judgmental about it. Maybe they are better than what I think they are. Or maybe I am just a flabby jelly.
But I can’t stop thinking that there are students out there paying for courses from literal monkeys. And deep inside, I have this odd feeling that I need to prove that I am a better monkey.